i made a list of all the things i was going to change about my life?
bought a wipe board. unwrapped it. sat with it. wrote down that which came to mind:
-figure out life plans for june 2009 (job end)
-smoke less (why do i?)
-floss more (battle bad breath!)
-exercise regularly (wanna look good naked)
i don't hate my job, but i can see myself getting lazy and complacent and i know there's more to life than what i'm doing. i can't see what that is but i know it's not here. one day i'll look back and sorta miss that i was so aimless and sloppy. i'll laugh with shame and then carry on.
post script: i checked the coast and it was clear that all of my friends i'd been close to and cherished had fallen off, enrolled in, got off their bums and toured the parts of the world where i could no longer reach them. lj used to be a commonplace to share thoughts and stories and photo to thumb through. now it's a ghost town. maybe now i write for myself. without an audience, what's to shame over?
